Yes

There I was making myself enough

To live my life

When life itself was knocking on my door

all the time

It used to say 

come let's play

All I had to say was yes!

I was scared all the time

Preparing myself to live 

When life itself was there

with open arms

All i needed to do was 

to look up into her eyes

And embrace the love

All the divine longing

I longed

Was there itself right in front

With open arms

And sparkling eyes

All I had to do was 

look up 

and say yes

Let's play.. 

Selfie

Now a days I got to read so much about 'scientists' whose 'research' links selfies to narcissism, addiction and mental illness etc. Well of course it is linked to self obsession. I don't understand what research needs to be done to highlight an obvious fact. Linking it to these illnesses is still alright but concluding that these conditions are caused by taking selfies is going way overboard, I think.

A narcissist is a narcissist. Taking a selfie doesn't make one. Say I am a narcissist (whether I am or not is unknown to me too, and who is to say anyway) and if I don't have an option to take a selfie, I would bug my friends to take my pictures from above my head, below my chin etc. I would spend hours and hours in front of mirror before going outside. Before cellphones I remember there were small mirrors those could fit in a pocket. Atleast sefies have given it a way. Obsession over looks and response from social media is not caused by selfies. It is already there and selfies are just a symptom. And once more our beloved 'researchers' are trying to cure symptoms. 

And who is going to judge if someone is a narcissist. I say the people who are researching on such obvious fact and feeling that they have figured out the problems of the world and feeling good are narcissists themselves. So I want to say it to people, teenage girls, guys, old people, young people, everyone.. if you want to take your own pictures, do it. If you are a narcissist, atleast be genuine. Don't let a bunch of good for nothing researchers demoralize you. If you really think you have a 'condition', reflect over it. Do not get led to believe you need external help. You are good enough and intelligent to solve your own problems.

And my beloved researchers, find some real things to work on. Go stop some wars or get a life or cat or whatever...

Perspective

    No matter what number of higher dimensions exist in the universe but nevertheless we are equipped with the sense of space and time. And its amazing how everything can be brought down to these and studies in parts to realize the whole situation. As the story goes, when Siddhartha meets the guy who takes people across the river in his boat, the biggest secret about time is revealed. Through this river he learnt that  flow of time is like the flow of this river. The river is always in flow and yet the same, that there is just one instant and that is right now.

   A situation we often face in life is getting along with the ways of other people. For instance, we criticize people for their adherence to a certain belief and conclude that they are fanatics. Then we meet some people with a flexibility in their attitude and declare them as fickle minded. Some types of music are too weird for us and some are too normal and lacking innovation.

 It reminded me of the concept of 'Origin' in the co-ordinate geometry. The origin can be selected anywhere on a plane and the axes are drawn from it. Now we say that certain point as at a certain distance from the origin. That is the exact case with our situation. The differences we find in the expression of this world appear to us according to where we put our origin. We set the standards and define the ways of life for ourselves and forget to take into account that the difference is relative. If we shift all the points to our own origin, everything would cease to exist. If the differences were not to be there, there would still be singularity and no explosion at all. The essence which was there, infinitely dense, has split to form differences. It split to form me and you. In the essence we are the same, and in expression we are different. We are here to cherish that differences and to remember we belong together. The whole universe.

On a still larger perspective, this origin and this plane is a part of out planet which is more or less a sphere. After crossing oceans and mountains, jungles and deserts, we will be back home again but this time belonging to the whole. And who knows, to know our whole universe we need to journey through all its dimensions, being home again but this time knowing everything.

Everything and Nothing

Your destruction of the self
Reflecting into your crafts
Infatuates me

The beauty of your soul
I found in its gloomy shadows
And your song of death
Was to me like a blossoming spring

The restraint of your manners
And your credulous eyes
Tell me that you have been there
At the intangible and unrestrained

The fleeting glance
When I knew you knew too
As they say
Everything is nothing
With a twist

Afloat...

Surfing along the waves
of uncertainty
I found my joy
of not making sense

A jolt of insanity
Throwing the mind
into an abyss
disoriented

Away from the womb
of the mother
Away from the touch
of the beloved
Away from the known
space, time and life
A cold, distant place
Fucking dark and freezing

Then I knew
Its my own darkness
Obscuring me
from my own shine
From so much I possess
Light and Will

Gliding myself in the abyss
knowing that I am
And how remarkable
Is my journey
Our journey
Beyond ourselves

Shine on you...

If I were asked to say the best song of all times, all moods and universes, it would be Shine On You Crazy Diamond. Hands down. It's like a complete trip of meaning. The people who compose that kind of stuff 'know' what's there to know. 

This, that

Suppose somebody from outside of human world comes to Earth to 'evaluate' how we have done in the past say 10,000 years. Do we get a good rating? Given that we were distinguished from animals by the so called superior brain? Of course there is the art, the medicine, science and all the exploration of physical universe, studies of human mind, cultivating the virtues such as kindness, compassion and love.. but given the time and capabilities we had, is it enough? I feel there is some basic,.intrinsic, invisible barrier or constraints of some inexplicable manner which plays a significant role in human dynamics. That we are not always headed towards a better future. The constant breakouts of hatred and negativity in the people's minds, killings, physical and mental torture, greed, the fight for dominance etc clearly reveal that we still have a long long way to go reach some level of civilization which we can call being truly human.

Not a single day passes when I am not amazed by the fact that, for us to be here, it took a fucking long chain of survivors. Just think till how far you know your ancestors.. hardly 4,5 generations? And think when life has originated here on Earth. Each one in our ancestral line has managed to struggle, fight, keep alive, reproduce. It has taken insane amount of time and effort for you to be right there. Alive. And as a human society, how much respect we have for this fact? 

I watched the movie 'Das Experiment' yesterday. In that movie, there is an experiment in which they 'simulate' a prison with randomly assigning roles of guards and prisoners to the volunteers. In conclusion, it is seen that irrespective pf personal traits and the past, people started to get actually entrapped into the 'role' they were playing. Some guards showed the authoritative and sadistic tendencies while some prisoners turned submissive, some turned rebel and so on.. so the thing I want to say here is, is all the behavior of people depend on the 'setting' of the experiment and as the setting is prison, even if it a simulation, the similar things had to happen there? Is our world also some kind of a 'setting', some kind of 'stage' where each one plays some role.. even if at individual level everybody seem to be okay, as a group things get a different shape.. I mean, one can think, 'it's a prison.. things like these are bound to happen'.. he might even extend it  to the whole world.. 'we're on Earth.. things like these are bound to happen..'

Personally, I like Osho's views on this topic. It goes something like.. unless everybody has a way to vent out the negativity in himself, things will keep getting fucked up.. only if I do not inflict my pain upon others, the peace can't be there and all human kind keeps adding meaningless zeros the history (from waking life!)..

A very good similarity can be found in the 'war is peace' thing of George Orwell.. many times I have found myself feeling a bit relaxed and relieved when I see things as how soldiers from my country killed some of the enemy people etc.. 

As a whole, we are responsible for every good or bad thing happening here. Everyone adds to the 'one big mind' or the total human consciousness. If there's too much frustration, anger, oppressed feelings, or anything less than human,  it has to and will break out somewhere on somebody.. we need healers.. first to heal myself, yourself, getting clean of all the false things, any idea of identity which creates a separation from other humans.. in fact other beings too.. living or even non living., anything that denies the freedom, which oppresses the human nature.. we have already wasted so much time time dividing.. this is the time to get past that.. there's so much more if our efforts are symbiotic and not competitive.. 

We have learnt how we were wrong in perceiving the world.. the force and energy were not different as thought but inter convertible.. then we knew all the forms of energy being no different than each other.. then came mass/ energy equivalence.. and hopefully a theory is not far away which combines the whole science, spirituality, humans, other life forms, and everything..! 

My point is we have now enough 'data' and knowledge that how everything here works.. so now we can be more than just objects which are governed by some rules.. if now we know the rules, can't we manipulate them for our own good? Is it going to happen that the evolution process of bodies and minds get more rapid if we ;know' things and how to control them..? 

More on this, next time.. 

to be continued..