Saturday, August 29, 2009

Chase

I wish I meet a person saying..


“I had a very contented life, I am happy for whatever things happened in my life which were sometimes in and sometimes out of my control and I don’t see myself fear to death anymore. I will take it peacefully whenever it comes.”


Is there even a rare possibility that at the end of your days you feel proud and content?
A sense of wisdom, accomplishment, peace will be there with you someday?

What is the one thing we always strive for.. betterment.. to be more than what we were a day ago.. to figure out.. to find out the purpose.. the things you really want to do..

In search of a
truth.. that we are not even sure it exists.., purpose.. again not knowing at least we are not chasing mirage..

And even if you feel like you have found one.. what is the guarantee you will stay with it..
As you grow you change..

Your present self is always right and he knows the mistakes he has done in the past..
When you had done those mistakes you thought you are doing no wrong, today again you are at the same point of the loop.. this is your present self and he thinks he is doing right..

Today’s seen is no different than that one..
You think you have figured it all..
A few years down and again there you are there.. end up concluding that you were wrong about all this.. you should have never chosen this path..


What if you dedicate your life to one single thing and at the end of it all you realise it was bullshit and you have no time to undo it?
And what if you try out different things, experiment with your life and in the end realise the thing that really mattered was to devote yourself totally to one thing..
This is our young age. if we screw up now we can start of even from scratch ..But
what if you realise this fact on your 40th birthday.. would you have the same balls as you have now? Won’t it be too difficult to steer the life carrying so much momentum?


Does it all depend on the reasoning and the words?.. the way you are seeing towards it.. someone who can reason it out more convincingly than you.. he can prove to you that you are truly a complete person or you are a total wreck..
And if it is just about interpretations.. what if you do it wrong.. or just pretend you are happy about yourself and thus betray yourself?
Would you think your life was worth it?
Would you do the things you want to do or do the things that matter in society?


Where does it end?
What do you have to do?
Think about it, figure it out and act or just stop trying to control everything and just let it go?

Or maybe you just need to be the stupid shepherd who chased his dream of pyramids through miles and miles of deserts and finally found the elixir at his own place…