Chase

I wish I meet a person saying..


“I had a very contented life, I am happy for whatever things happened in my life which were sometimes in and sometimes out of my control and I don’t see myself fear to death anymore. I will take it peacefully whenever it comes.”


Is there even a rare possibility that at the end of your days you feel proud and content?
A sense of wisdom, accomplishment, peace will be there with you someday?

What is the one thing we always strive for.. betterment.. to be more than what we were a day ago.. to figure out.. to find out the purpose.. the things you really want to do..

In search of a
truth.. that we are not even sure it exists.., purpose.. again not knowing at least we are not chasing mirage..

And even if you feel like you have found one.. what is the guarantee you will stay with it..
As you grow you change..

Your present self is always right and he knows the mistakes he has done in the past..
When you had done those mistakes you thought you are doing no wrong, today again you are at the same point of the loop.. this is your present self and he thinks he is doing right..

Today’s seen is no different than that one..
You think you have figured it all..
A few years down and again there you are there.. end up concluding that you were wrong about all this.. you should have never chosen this path..


What if you dedicate your life to one single thing and at the end of it all you realise it was bullshit and you have no time to undo it?
And what if you try out different things, experiment with your life and in the end realise the thing that really mattered was to devote yourself totally to one thing..
This is our young age. if we screw up now we can start of even from scratch ..But
what if you realise this fact on your 40th birthday.. would you have the same balls as you have now? Won’t it be too difficult to steer the life carrying so much momentum?


Does it all depend on the reasoning and the words?.. the way you are seeing towards it.. someone who can reason it out more convincingly than you.. he can prove to you that you are truly a complete person or you are a total wreck..
And if it is just about interpretations.. what if you do it wrong.. or just pretend you are happy about yourself and thus betray yourself?
Would you think your life was worth it?
Would you do the things you want to do or do the things that matter in society?


Where does it end?
What do you have to do?
Think about it, figure it out and act or just stop trying to control everything and just let it go?

Or maybe you just need to be the stupid shepherd who chased his dream of pyramids through miles and miles of deserts and finally found the elixir at his own place…

Doing Nothing

Many of you wont believe me guys..

but doing nothing is not as easy as it sounds...it is a very difficult discipline to master and takes a lot of toil..

by doing nothing I refer to the intentional idleness and not the helpless situation when you are not being able to do anything..

here.. let me share my encounter to enlightenment..

It so happened that since many days I am obsessed with many things which I am supposed to do ASAP.. some of them are really important and some are just there to haunt me..

and finally.. today.. I stood up strongly against all of them and decided not to do a thing.. Do nothing!!!

So I was doing nothing...

It went smooth till first 10-15 minutes.. (even this much time is OK as a first attempt..) when I was suddenly struck by my own thoughts.. Secretly the ones related to "things to do" were about to unite and rebel...

So just sitting was very difficult and I started to look for something that might help me do nothing..

my guitar.. "no.. I just cant play 'nothing' with it"
cell phone.."no...."
comp...
google search.."God! how to search nothing???"..

and there was it.. I typed "doing nothing" and went for it.. and got the link to wikiHow to do nothing..(there is a seven step procedure given to master the art of doing nothing!!!) and was so happy to know that i am not alone in this journey..

Someone has rightly said..
if you seek for it.. you get it..
even if you seek for "nothing"...

chalo.. i wont add more to this..
see ya later..
have to go and do nothing...

the day after tomorrow

This wasnt the way or time i ever thought ill start blogging with... this really.. isnt the right time at all
Tuesday.. the day after tomorrow my sessional exams gonna start,so by this time i am supposed to finish up the xeroxing of the syllabus,class notes etc.. etc.
Its the 6th sem and even if i have screwed up in last five sems.. im not getting used to it.That doesnt mean im making any serious attempts for this exam.. but still..
This has been happening before every exam that these random thoughts keep my mind occupied..
like..
suddenly i start feeling nostalgic about the past...
or may be i should start thinking seriously what i want to do in life.. may be i want to be a sailor! oh.. who is misguiding my boat..where am i heading.. now wats this place.. chandrama!!!..
in nights i hang out with my friends at chandrama.. laughing at our own misery that is brought by exams..
shit man.. i never found studying this much mind screwing..

the Bhutan trip.. ya. i remember.. not going as planned in feb.. but for sure man.. i am going to Bhutan this year..

even gods dont want me to study.. this winter.. its so awesome.. i should step out right now..
plus there are so many good movies are released recently.. i have hardly watched 7-8...

shit.. thoughts get random very often .. i always wonder.. are our thoughts linked to each other??

they must not be.. because i cant land up blogging when i am actually at the analysis of the heat flow over a perfectly insulated tapered steel rod.....