Loss

I have memorized the words

Which I don't understand 

I have debated fiercely 

To veil my ignorance 

I stand for something 

To forget that I am falling

I am ready to sacrifice my life

Which I have never lived

I am ready to kill

Because I am dead inside

I want to destroy 

Because I am afraid of extinction 

I want to protect my culture

Because I do not understand it 

I want to destroy 'their' culture

Because I have not found mine

What am I waiting to happen

To take a pause

Madness has taken over me

And I have gone unstoppable

So that I do not know the truth 

I am searching something

Without knowing what is lost

I speak of truth 

Without knowing what is false

I put on a mask

And go on about

Following the trend 

Pretending everything is all right